Wednesday, June 17, 2009 12:27 AM
Looks like i almost forgotten that i have blog. Life is starting to slow down. Kind of what i always hoped. Everything use to just pass by so quickly, no time to reflect or even to think what to do next. Tried many ways to learn how to slow it down. Like sitting down and quieten down but i always fail and end up watching television. I constantly ask myself what is the reason in doing this. Have I forget who am I suppose to live for? All this while I'm on the centre stage. If i decide to do this or not, first come to mind is whether it benefit me, whether it makes me happy. What happen to whether it is right or wrong? For months, I am living for myself. Just a sunday christian as what other people call it. Things that involves God will have to wait till its sunday. But that entire day I don't concentrate on Him. Maybe that is the problem all this while. I am neglecting God. Even when i do my quiet time or listen during sunday school, I don't feel God speaking to me at all. I presume that I really forgot how much He loved me, how much He was willing to pay just to save me even though I'm not worthy. He was by my side all this while.