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Everything that happen recently have been rather mundane. In the sense that there isn't really much to talk about. Its kind the reason why i haven't been updating much recently. Usually i post about stuff only when i find that there's something to say. Something that may be a milestone in my life, or maybe a step closer to walking with God. I guess sometimes the reason of posting is that I don't want my blog to be somewhere in the Internet full of information, collecting dust.



The things that I do in the past that i find no purpose in continuing, the thought of it really make me wonder why is it that i give up on things so easily. Simply saying that i really have no perseverance to do things at all, being irresponsible doing things halfway. I have never thought of it this way. I use to think that if i continue in doing, there's really no point. For example my cca, i kind of gave up on shooting. Finding no purpose in just standing there for more than an hour not moving but just shooting on this pathetic target cards with pellets. Like if you see it this way, i can guarantee you, sooner or later you would think it is absolutely boring. That is what happened to me. I kind of did that and got away with it and the excuse being I play frisbee outside school and I am participating in competition. But i wasn't all a lie, i really did play frisbee and i have participated in competitions but the main reason is that i don't want to carry on shooting anymore.

I prefer throwing and catching frisbees rather than standing in an air-conditioning room shooting some card. I could not find any purpose for God putting me there. I wasn't really good at it, i can't do anything that will glorify the Lord and its just plain boring. You can say that i sort of betrayed my team leaving them there to train with a member of the team missing. At that time i really couldn't care less. Now I have come to realise i can do much more just by standing there looking at the card, carefully adjusting myself to aim for a bull's eye. There is more to it, you really need to learn calm yourself down and being cautious about how your body sway from front to back having to balance yourself.



There is really a lot of things that i find no reason in doing them. I just want to stay at home and do nothing. And i can do that for years if i want to. But now i have finally come to realise that I am not living for myself. And that there is a purpose for everything, although with my limited knowledge i can not find any, but there is a much bigger picture that i could not see. That i should not be the one that is controlling my life but it is He that knows whats best for me. Taking care of everything, being right beside me. And greater is He in me than he that is out in the world, having me not to be afraid that I'm all alone. He is my reason to live.



Really felt God's presence today. That i could feel that He is really right there in our midst. At times, i still have my doubts that He really exists. When times are hard with all the hectic schedules, it is hard to calm yourself down and listen to His soft still voice. Maybe that's why I doubt that He is there. It is just that I could not hear and feel His presence, but definitely He is there. I know it.

I have finally found peace in Him.







My God is enough♥