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It been long since i really post a long one. I guess maybe my mind is thinking simpler nowadays. And its still in the holiday mode. Oh no!!! o.0 wait... It has been in this mode at the very beginning of the year, maybe that's the reason why i couldn't do much things in a fixed period of time. Now its the end of holidays, and the starting of mugging. I should really catch up with my work. I have been taking a break for too long already. So unable to concentrate in class, not knowing that I'm daydreaming the whole time. The weird thing is the teacher still thinks that I'm paying attention. Its like isn't it obvious that nothing that you said or shouted did not even enter my ears, with the blur look on my face like I'm somewhere in outer space. That should be easy to read, but amazingly, that's not the case. Oh wells. Maybe that will be better. Haha



Came back to school and realised that i didn't even attend any lessons yesterday. Not exactly like there's no class or I'm not in school. Its just that my A.maths teacher was not in school. At first when my class thought that she went for OBS. Super funny. Everybody was like discussing what is she going to there. Then... We found out that her dad passed away. Its really very sad. Just hope we won't piss her off making her feel even more terrible than she is now. Our Chinese teacher walked out of class today due to out attitude towards lessons and our English teacher was not even in school. So practically it did not seem that i even attended my lessons. Yesterday was seriously weird. But i manage to do quiet time that night. Not exactly wholeheartedly but i manage to concentrate on His word. I realised how much I will miss out many things, the still small voice when i don't do it. Especially when i just give Him the left-over of my time. I couldn't do that when He gave His life for me.



Had this stupid rehearsal today. It is seriously a waste of time. I don't even now i even wanted to attend. Like its for some prize-giving ceremony where "VIP"s are coming. We were asked to go up and receive the prize with their so called standard. "Firm handshake, remember to greet, no dragging of feet, no shuffling, remember to say thank you, and bow properly." The whole thing was just to do this, and it too an hour. Thank god lots of people didn't go for it. If not I really wonder what time will it end. Haha. The thing is there's another rehearsal next Thursday that's compulsory along with the whole programme. No..!

Oh wells.







My God is enough♥

Haven't been able to do much stuff lately. But staring into blank space has definitely been more often. In front of others, we still seem that we're okay. Still talking and stuff, being nice and all, still the same and always. But now its just different. I use to have my best friend right there to listen my complains. You have always been there. Even though its hard for you to be so concerned for the fact that everyone has been teasing you. Through all my difficult times, when i down having no one realising it, you were the one making me know that God will not let me take more than i am able to. Having come to this, i guess i could only seek the Lord. To really want to draw closer to Him rather than face difficult and lonely times on my own. That He will always be there no matter what.

Many things had happen throughout the week. Most things aren't that pleasant. It sort of gotten worse. Trying to numb all that sadness away just by doing things that will take my focus away. To really be lost somewhere rather than to think about it all the time. I have no idea why must it come to this. I have tried countless methods to try not ruin it all, even though i still have to hide it from you ,to really hurt you like that, i really have no other choice. I guess it will be better this way. I have to... It really hurts to do that to you. One day you will understand the big picture. Maybe i should have left earlier, never to come close to you. Then all this pain, i won't have to bear . Since i really left, i guess i have more things to concentrate on.


I know its my fault, like what i said i have no other choice. I guess you'll find a better friend. I'm really very sorry.

Wee!! The holidays are here! Like finally after all that stress thats on me. Time to spend more time with all those i haven't been talking to. Mama, i miss you. =( But that means i will be bored at home if i don't get out of the house. Plus all that homwork is piled up on my table. And i have oral on monday. But the thought of having time to concentrate on my thoughts it scares me. I guess i have been blocking all my thoughts out for some reason. Even my emotions are running weird. Maybe its time to concentrate on what God is telling me. I have neglected Him for too long. The evil one will be happy if i drift too far, but i'm not going to let him have his way. Hope i am able to focus my thoughts and hear His still small voice. Felt quite dry ,spiritually. That explains my absent mind for this few months. My mood has been quite extreme recently. Sorry if i offended you in any way. My sincere apologies.



Being borthered by numerous things. Unable to get it off my mind. I really need someone to talk to. But once i'm in a conversation i don't rememeber what's bothering me, just trying to concentrate on the topic is about. Somebody save me!!! I guess its just that i don't ever tell anyone one.(papa, don't scold me. you lied to me too remember?)

Sort of the reason why i wrote it on the blog. I'm not able to share my troubles. At most i'll just complain. haiz...



I guess thats all i can remember.







My God is enough♥

Things have been much better now. And kind of peaceful now. I really hope it stays this way. At first when facing all the obstacles that cause me to stress myself out was really too hard to bear, but now i can truly say God will not let you bear things more than what you're able to. And my prayer is answered!!! I really didn't expect it at first, usually God won't answer prayers straight away. On many occasions the answer was "wait", but this time it was really fast. Went for prayer meeting on wednesday. Had a lot of things on mind, and quite bothered by it especially my studies. Told many of my problems to petra asking her to pray for me. I told her i was really stressed out and exhausted. And I'm running out of ideas for my coursework. In addition, I have chinese test the next day. Couldn't really think as my head was clog up by my problems.

The meeting ended and took a ride from zeph. Realised that he is a very nice guy and not exactly quiet. From the time we sat in the van and all the way to my bus-stop, he didn't really stop talking. And he really speak very fast, like i couldn't even rememeber when he breathe. Haha. And that day was the only time my whole sunday school class was there. Actually only david didn't come. I wonder next time, will our class be quiet again. With only the teachers talking. Hmmm. Back to the point, I sat for chinese test with a very calm mind, not even panicking when i saw difficult words that i have never seen before. I guess i have to surrender my results to the Lord. I have done my part and I shouldn't worry at all. During dnt class, my prayer was answered the exact way petra prayed for me, that i will have an idea for the project. The word toilet struck my mind and out of the blue i have an idea. It sounds quite weird but the idea was quite cool. Shall keep it a secret unless you come and ask me personally. Haha
I'm so glad that I have a God who is enough for me. That His grace is sufficient.

Today
Slept quite late last night even though kind of quarelled with my bestie. Shall not probe on it. Intending to sleep but kx called. And we started talking nonsense like throughout the whole convo. It kind of kept me from thinking about stuff. Yep.
Woke up at 7. My eyes are bearly open. And the comfy bed was tempting. Wanted to go back to sleep so badly. But I manged to stay awake. Packed my stuff and asked my mum to give me a lift. I needed to reach VIVO like at 8.30. If i took public transport, i would be super late. Reached around 8.15. Jun qian came like half an hour later. Waited for petra until i fell asleep. =.=
So the whole morning when we're there, we studied at coffee bean without breakfast. I could literally hear my stomach growling. It was that bad. Bestie came after his training wiith all the bags and his maths file. Wanted to pass to me for me to revise. It is so thick and heavy, i wonder how he manage to carry it for so long. We studied till 2. Finally lunch can be eaten. Ate at Thai express. Quite nice though but the serving was really very small, Had to order quite a few more dishes to fill our stomach. And its time to shop! It is still my favourite. Haha
But vivo isn't really a good place to shop. Everything is so expensive. And the ambience gives me headaches. Jq left earlier though. Kind of sad. But I felt quite guilty because the whole time we are only shopping for girl's stuff. mostly shoes. Headed down to The Heren. I bought a bag which is so cheap like it is on offer. So happy! Wee! Walked around more. We went into this shop that sells crumpler bags. And there were so many pink bags. And this is what petra said,"The pink is so sad, I feel like crying." It was hilarious la. Like i coulnd't believe it came out of her mouth. She is so funny. Here's another one, "your jokes are so lame, I feel like crying". I couldn't stop laughing after that.

Had a great time today, even though the plans were changed and no frisbee. Oh wells. It was fun and funny. So going to go for more study dates with petra. Like we are able to study even though there were shops around us like everywhere. I love petra!!!


Bff, this goes to you. I'm glad that you realised that you have done wrong. Kind of sorry to be so hard on you. Although i'm kind of dissapointed in you at first, but i'm proud of you. That you didn't run away from it even though whatever questions i ask you, you only replied"i don't know". Do know that i'm always here for you. Any problems you have, i will try my best to see what i can do to help you. That is if you're not in the wrong. And remember what i've told you, cherish your girlfriend. She love you enough to forgive you of what you have done. So do treat her nicer.



My God is enough♥

Still kindda tired though but feeling much better already. Yep yep. Went for prayer meeting even though i was really tired and stressed out for the upcoming tests. Have no idea why are most of my test are on thursdays. It seemed that it is preventing me from going to prayer meeting. But still, it did not affect me much like I don't really care whether i will do very badly. I just have to surrender it to him and do my part. That is if i felt like it. Haha.

Now i admit I AM STRESS!!! Could not take it anymore. With all the headaches and pressure, I am really very tired. Although I don't like sleeping early, even before the sun goes down i feel like sleeping for 12 hours. Test after test, homework are given like a running tap. I can't seem to concentrate anymore. Test results are really bad this time. I just passed my DNT. How can that be!!! I use to score almost full marks. Seriously i'm lagging behind in everything. Thank God there is only 24 hours a day. If it was any longer, I will be worse. Trying to mug everyday, but i always fail. I always end up doing nothing or rather things that does not matter at all. SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! In addition, now is only the beginning of the year. How am i suppose to continue like this. My friends are also having their own problems, kind of worrying me too. I guess i need to rearrange whats more important.





My God is enough♥