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Another week gone, time really flies. It is hard to hold on to it and try to catch. They always say time does not wait for anyone. And now it is even faster than the time i remembered the pace. Maybe I'm just stress or something is bothering me again. This time i really have no idea. My mind is still as blank as ever, excluding all the food popping in my head. Haha

Been spacing out more often this few days, and i really look exhausted. I want naps!!! Like super long naps. My flu is back again!!! Being drenched in the rain really attracted the cold for me to catch if you know what i mean. And spamming water is so needed right now.



Wednesday

Was feeling quite high that day. Woke up rather late and felt like going back to sleep. But surprisingly in class i didn't even sleep. And there's no need of chocolates and sweets to keep me awake. Yeah for me. The day passed quickly and school ended. Went out with best friend to get his stuff. He is seriously addicted to shopping. With all the things he wants to buy i wonder when he will finish buying what he wants. I guess its my fault and now here i am complaining. haha

Headed down to Wisma to see if there's any shops that have his long sleeves. That place mostly have shops for female. Other than that its just Giordano. The place that will have his clothes without fail is only far east, again... =.= Have gone there very often, but still not bored shopping there. The things they are not really that cheap but still affordable. With only $80, he managed to buy two things. And there's no remainder to buy his dinner. Thank God girl's clothes are way cheaper. Too bad... There's a christian shop on the top flloor. And the books sold there, you don't really see it in othere shops like tecman. Or maybe it does. Haha

Bought 2 nice small cards. The picture is so nice!!! Chippy british take-away is addicting!!! Had that for lunch.



Prayer meeting was during the evening. On the way to church, I saw two rainbows top of each other. It's so nice. The first time i saw a rainbow in Singapore, and now its two!!! So pretty~

The feeling after prayer meeting was great, the same feeling after camp ends. And my memory is failing me again... Forgot a number of things to pray about. haiz...





My God is enough♥

Why is it so difficult to just let things just be the way it is? That is not that easy as you think to just let it go, to really just stop for awhile and think. Not being able to ignore what is going on. Constant haunting of the matter that once you picked up and not able to ever put it down. As for your worries and woes it seems this way being the anxious way we are, but for the things He wants us to do, it is just too difficult to even start doing it. That the burden don't seem that heavy to carry, leaving it aside for the time being. Why does it have to be this way? Pain comes and repeatedly attack you causing you to fall. Thinking that you are not able to take it anymore. Giving up everything almost to the end. Its like swimming from one island to another and after three quarter, you say to yourself that its too tiring and you swim back to the island where you started.

I have been pondering on this thought for quite awhile now. Tracing back all the things that had happened, many are more important than the others. But I'm not putting the right thing or for that matter, someone above all things. In many ways, we are tempted. And only after we fall into the trap then we realised that it is actually a trap. And guiltiness soon appear. Being all sorry about it, repeating to ourselves that we'll repent. But soon we'll end up where we were before.

Being stubborn as a rock, we will take a extremely long time to change. I always end up learning things the hard way. After all the mishap then I will realise that i should have stop it at the very beginning. Or not to even start in the first place. But still lessons still have to be learnt.





My God is enough♥

WOW! Its been two weeks since i last posted anything, and in between i even forgot that i even have a blog. My memory is really getting worse by the day. Sigh... I am such a goldfish. And there's a reason why goldfish is used as a metaphor.

Recently it has been rather stressful in school, with numerous test to study for. And without fail, there will be homework every alternate days. In the past, homework was just a few questions. Now its project after projects, more than one worksheet that needs to be done during the weekends. And my coursework is falling back behind time, being stuck at the problem situations part. I don't even know which idea that i want to choose or even decided what i want to do.



The past few weeks have been rather 'lag' for me. I do have a lot of free time but i am still not able to get my work done on time. All the free time to stare into space for a period of time and start staring at the homework with nothing going on in my head. It is just pitch black in there. Haven't seen light in there for a very long time if you know what i mean. =p

At times i forget to bring the materials back to do my homework even after repeated reminders. That is the reason why my bag is not that heavy, and always empty handed when leaving school.

Quiet time is also forgotten frequently, God neglected. But still, He never fails to be right beside me holding me in the palm of His hand walking me through difficult times.



Today

Two test were on today, but only one done. Had this interview at primary school for EV. Practically things asked does not really have to do anything with us. Mainly was for the alumni. Frankly speaking, we are alumni "NOT". Seriously the alumni does not do anything at all except have some meetings for the sake of it. We do so much more than them. Oh wells, they have to pay a fee of $10 and usually the money contribute to fully subsidise our courses. I am truly grateful. Anyway the credit goes to us and not really to the alumni. Wee! So much for excused for Chinese test. Heard that it was very hard and mostly they told me they would fail. That is sad to hear. Geography was not that difficult.I knew roughly what was coming out so I didn't really study for it. Same goes to Chinese. I didn't really bother to even look through the idioms handbook. I am being a pig AGAIN! Oh no...

Went for prayer meeting yesterday. And before that sort of celebrated Dawn's birthday. Felt quite out of place, I didn't really know her personally. But she's nice.^^

The cake was great. It was light cheese cake with Oreo and Arabelle added crushed famous Amos cookies on top. Maybe if the base of the cake was biscuits, it will be better. The cake was rather soft though...

~Happy Birthday Dawn!!!







My God is enough♥

I realized that all this while, I have been suppressing my emotions. And on my face, you will only see a smile. Have no idea why, but eventually after unfortunate things happen, it will be long forgotten. And it’s instantly, weird huh… It’s like a default mode of a camera, but this time it is my brain. That many things don’t affect me that much as it is to others. It will be rare that you will find me sad for a very long period of time. But at times, I will look like I’m on the verge of breaking down, instead of prolonging the pain inside me; I end up forgetting it AGAIN. Sometimes it annoys me, like there are things that are really important. Examples like lessons learnt even though I learn it hard way and decisions that were badly made.

In a camera, the pictures you take will be saved in a memory card. But my problems and woes are not stored in my memory but in my best friend’s head. It seems like I have a removable access memory while his is a hard disk drive. He’s such a poor thing. From the day I told him, the next day I am fine again. But the things he received from me are stored in him for a few days. And recently it has been “topsy turvy” for him. He have been feeling quite stressed out and exhausted. In a way, it is kind of my fault. I am sorry about that. This is the reason why I decided not to occupy your sleeping time and continue to suck your energy out of you. Now I sound like I am a monster. Haha. Hope you take care of yourself until one week is over. Do call, if you really need someone to talk to.

To pillow:
If you made your decision, then stick to it. Do not let things to affect you. If you keep pondering on those thoughts, it will make you think again. And that will show that before you made the decision, you did not think through it properly. May be at that moment, there are things that you don’t want to take into consideration, but for his own good. No matter what happen, I will always be there for you. And I am just a call away. Do cheer up! Today is a gift, tomorrow is a mystery. Love you

Today!
Lessons today were quite okay in a way. It was not that boring that I could just close my eyes and fall asleep. Not much work to be done during lessons but homework is going to be a BIG pile. Education really kills trees, in a way it’s killing us too. With many brain cells dying, no shade that prevent us from getting skin cancer, no fresh air and not enough oxygen to go around.
A math’s test was today after recess. I did not revise enough to prepare myself for the test. I should have started earlier, and then it will be much easier. The questions were quite tricky when you first look at it. After awhile, I find it was like going “merry-go-round.” Hope that I will not fail miserably. Even though Ms Yeo’s papers were well known to kill, I guess it only kills when you don’t study.

I went to DAILY SCOOPS with soulmate, basil and best friend. And it was all the way at clementi. The distance apart was rather long. We had to sit on the bus for more than 1 hour, SUPER numb. SALTED MR BROWN and LYCHEE MARTINI were great. Even though the salted Mr. Brown had a weird after taste, it was not that bad. Feli and basil were rather quiet, although they know each other; I guess it’s a good thing that they did not shut their mouths throughout the day there.

My God is enough ♥

Finally I'm back to post again. Life has been mundane for the past few weeks. And in addition, I'm still down with a cough and sore throat. My flu got better. Thank God. If not I should be arrested for murder. I mean the trees. Haha. Guess I really need to cut down on fried food and junkies. Won't tell you guys what I ate today though. Time to spam water down my system. Have been tired for weeks already. Can't seem to wake up before 6.30. Had 5 alarms ringing every morning but I only manage to hear 2. Seriously I wonder I have selective hearing. And my memory is getting from bad to worse. At first what i couldn't remember are stuff like homework, things you don't want to remember. But now when i leave my room wanting to take something, the moment I walk out, POOF!

Had no idea what i wanted to take. Champion already.I think I will collapse sooner or later.

Hope that won't come true.





Lessons today and yesterday were rather awkward. Especially during a maths and physics. It happened yesterday during a maths class, when Ms yeo came in with a super angry face. At first she was just talking to Kris, and then some started laughing for some reason. Then she started shouting saying that some didn’t hand up their work during free period as the rest were taking DNT or art. She was utterly furious. At the moment she said that she's angry and there we were cracking jokes. I seriously went blur. There were only that few that were laughing and she just shouted she is not going to teach anymore. No more a maths forever and she just walk out like that. I couldn't believe what i was hearing. Like if there really no more a maths, what’s going to happen? I shouldn't say this but there are people in the class who seriously just didn't want to take it seriously, find it rather unfair that because of that the whole class have to suffer. >.<





For physics, it started the beginning of the year that there many that couldn't catch what the teacher was teaching. The class came up with a petition to change the teacher. One thing the teacher's English wasn't really that clear to understand and he couldn't control the class. Age is catching up on him, and I guess it hard for him too. But surprisingly I could roughly understand what he is trying to teach, but sadly for the rest it wasn't the case. There was a day when he handed us a piece of paper and he wants us to write that piece of paper took quite awhile to hand up. So today the head of science came and talked to us. In a way, he didn't sound at all authoritative. But he told us about his own experience about such teachers and wanted us to give the teacher a chance to really teach us and help us move towards the goal to get A1s. Then the teacher came in, the moment he stopped walking and stood there, he brought up the topic and said SORRY. Josie and I were stunned that we were glued to our chairs with our mouths hanging open. Felt quite sad though. It’s like we couldn't stand the way he teach and already waning to write him off, instead of being angry with us, he came in and apologized. Many must have felt a little guilty. And the expression on his face, really look like he’s trying hard and a little upset. I have never seen a teacher like him, which apologizes to the whole class just because most of us couldn’t understand what he is teaching. Most will just claim that it’s our concept of thinking and attitude towards learning. I’m glad that he’s my teacher and I hope that he will continue to be one.

Now I have no idea why I have the feeling that for many lessons, most of us are distracted and didn’t take it seriously. Maybe it’s just the beginning of the year and many haven’t settled down yet. Really pray that we as a class will strive towards the best we can do.


Had pillow, soul mate and penguin over at my place today. Feli spent most of the time sticking her eyes on the screen, barely and words came out of her mouth. Hope she’s okay. Pillow and penguin were like torturing each other. With whacks pinches and bites. Never seen such a boyfriend that bears to even hit his girlfriend. I guess maybe it’s because of a “violent” girlfriend; you’ll end up being like this. Haha. (Hope they don’t kill me for what I’ve written.) Today was also the first time that I can talk to pillow about so many things. We use to have nothing to talk about on the phone but still quite close and I have no idea how. Oh wells, she is nice to hug. And the bird that couldn’t fly accuses me of stealing his girlfriend just because of the personal message that says I love manisa. And it wasn’t even me that wrote that. It was the person he accuses me stealing. So nonsense la. I should complain it to her, see what her reaction is. Kidding.

Time to carry on learning my spelling. Hope I don’t fail miserably. It’s so hard to remember when your memory is like a goldfish. Oh well, what to do? PRAY!!!



My God is enough♥