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Have been a lil absent-minded nowadays, an i have no idea why either. In simple terms may be cuz my head hurt all the time even now. And it caused me to feel rather down. Not forgetting my best friend is in Malaysia the past few days.=( Maybe that explains my random replies and the awkward silence when he called. Forgetting all my homework and stuff that really needed to be done. Have been cracking my head for quite awhile, guess my illness is the main reason. In addition, it got a lil better but still having the running nose and continuous sneezing. Honestly speaking, i notice I'm living my life where it only revolves around ''me''. Not the world but the way I'm living for myself with the concept that it is ''I'' that is the reason why I'm living. And it should not be the case. Kind of explains why spiritually i feel so dry AGAIN. Nonetheless, I'm suppose to thirst for something. Something that filled my emptiness i felt inside, or you may say someone. It even overflow that i clearly remember how i should live my life.But that's not the case. Its not about me, but to glorify His name. And still, i side-tracked from His way. Haven't been doing quiet time wholeheartedly. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!! I can talk about it but not doing anything about it at all. Guess actions speak louder than words even to myself in the sense where you only talk about it and soon you'll forget all about it but with what you do, you'll clearly remember. In the same way, i can memorise God's word, after a few days, i will forget about it completely. In the same way it will only be engraved in my heart when i apply it.



I can tell others that they are going the wrong path, but i myself is sort of doing the same thing. And doubts are starting to surface. Being not able think clearly, i can't even concentrate when i pray, i could even forget that I'm praying. How bad can it get! Please pray for me and be faithful that He'll answer your prayer. Really wish i have the faith of a child, not complicating stuff over and over again. To really seek Him wholeheartedly, confess and repent on what I've done. So ashamed of what Ive become, too afraid to come before Him again. Only he can undo what I've become and turn me around to head the right way, the path He wants me to walk. And pick me up when i fall to the very bottom i can go. To really praise His name in this storm. I guess the world has nothing i need. And the things that I'm after are destroying me. To see the evil prosper when I'm struggling through. To wish that i could be like them at the expanse of my soul. But my God is enough for me. And He is the one that will provide the everything that i need.







My God is enough♥