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Have been a lil absent-minded nowadays, an i have no idea why either. In simple terms may be cuz my head hurt all the time even now. And it caused me to feel rather down. Not forgetting my best friend is in Malaysia the past few days.=( Maybe that explains my random replies and the awkward silence when he called. Forgetting all my homework and stuff that really needed to be done. Have been cracking my head for quite awhile, guess my illness is the main reason. In addition, it got a lil better but still having the running nose and continuous sneezing. Honestly speaking, i notice I'm living my life where it only revolves around ''me''. Not the world but the way I'm living for myself with the concept that it is ''I'' that is the reason why I'm living. And it should not be the case. Kind of explains why spiritually i feel so dry AGAIN. Nonetheless, I'm suppose to thirst for something. Something that filled my emptiness i felt inside, or you may say someone. It even overflow that i clearly remember how i should live my life.But that's not the case. Its not about me, but to glorify His name. And still, i side-tracked from His way. Haven't been doing quiet time wholeheartedly. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!!!! I can talk about it but not doing anything about it at all. Guess actions speak louder than words even to myself in the sense where you only talk about it and soon you'll forget all about it but with what you do, you'll clearly remember. In the same way, i can memorise God's word, after a few days, i will forget about it completely. In the same way it will only be engraved in my heart when i apply it.



I can tell others that they are going the wrong path, but i myself is sort of doing the same thing. And doubts are starting to surface. Being not able think clearly, i can't even concentrate when i pray, i could even forget that I'm praying. How bad can it get! Please pray for me and be faithful that He'll answer your prayer. Really wish i have the faith of a child, not complicating stuff over and over again. To really seek Him wholeheartedly, confess and repent on what I've done. So ashamed of what Ive become, too afraid to come before Him again. Only he can undo what I've become and turn me around to head the right way, the path He wants me to walk. And pick me up when i fall to the very bottom i can go. To really praise His name in this storm. I guess the world has nothing i need. And the things that I'm after are destroying me. To see the evil prosper when I'm struggling through. To wish that i could be like them at the expanse of my soul. But my God is enough for me. And He is the one that will provide the everything that i need.







My God is enough♥

Have been sick for quite a long time, like around 1 month plus? Sad to say i was sick on my birthday too. Only yesterday that i went to see the doctor, the reason is i couldn't take it anymore and people have been scolding me. But strangely i did not have any fever or throat infection. Just a bad case of flu though, but I'm feeling very cold that i have to wear a uber thick sweater and cover myself with a blanket. The doctor gave me a two MC, now the second day already i felt worse than yesterday. Have no clue why, maybe its due to lack of food consumed. I blackout and fell on the ground, my head hurt big time. Barely can see whats around me but still i was conscious enough to know what happened. My legs started shaking and it hit the kitchen door beside me. And now i have a bad bruise on my knee. Even though I felt so weak, i guess I'll get better soon with all the prayers from others. And i know my Lord will heal me and give me a speedy recovery. Just two days at home, its really boring me. I bet there's a whole pile of homework in school for me to complete.

Soulmate and joey came to look for me after school. At first soulmate called to ask whether i could go out of the house. Of course i could, just that i may faint on the way down. HAHA
She told me they have to buy something first before they come over. And they have pass me my homework. Went down and saw a purple plastic bag in her hands. I was wondering why put homework in a plastic bag. So weird...
In the end, i saw the purple bag i liked and its overpriced for that kind of size. I couldn't believe that they really bought it. Started screaming and hugged them. I asked "why didn't you just say so rather lie about passing me homework?"
She assumed that for homework i would definitely come down. How weird for an excuse. Haha
hur hur, I love you!!
same goes to you too soulmate. =)

Sunday

Happy birthday to me! =) Went to church in the morning half awake. Was sneezing continuously that my whole nose turned red. At first, everybody seems normal , just shaking my hand saying happy birthday. During Sunday school lesson, the teachers just brief us on some things. Going through what theme we will be this year. Until David had to tell its my birthday, felt so awkward. He handed me a present that was so heavy. Wonder how he was able to keep in his bag for so long, petra and yilin bought me something too. Out of the blue joey came to say happy birthday and shock my hand. But he did not stop there, he started SINGING the birthday song. Could tell he resist the laughter. It was so funny!!!!
Celebrated the January-s babies birthday. They bought a fruit cake. Then there came the cream on my face. Mama so mean..=(
Thought only she will do that, didn't expect my cousin came with more cream. That morning i smell like cream if you stand closer to me.

Then in the evening, went to find my friends after jap class which was such a bore. Headed to vivo, took a short nap on the train on the way there. Met Steven and baocheng first. Was surprised that baocheng came. Most of the time or may all the time when i was with them, he wouldn't there or he will have to leave early. He wore a shirt that has a monkey printed on it. Out of nowhere he came and told me he's not afraid of the chicken. Super random!!! The whole time he just commented on the shirt i wore. Met up with the rest and headed to the rooftop. Jas, zhiting and polien came after awhile. They came with a cake with a candles on top. They're so SWEET! LOVE YOU GUYS. here comes the cream again after they sang the song. But this time it was chocolate. They attacked me first then Steven and frank. Serve you right Steven!! Had a hard time cleaning that off. All that went, bought something for me. That's so nice of them. Went to far east plaza to shop, thomas looked for new year clothes. I was wondering why most of his shirts are either black or white. Even the ones he chose, are also almost the same gradient of colour. Bff bought the shirt that i longed for more than a month. SUPER HAPPY! Love you BFF!!!
Had dinner at soup restaurant which was located in some posh hotel. Ordered quite a few dishes. And in the end, i paid half the service charge and GST. Oh wells.

And here's the end of my birthday. Had fun and lots of love shown. Hehe
With their presents, of course. =p


My God is enough♥