Wednesday, November 26, 2008  10:20 AM
i felt so dry
In a world where wrong seems right and right seems wrong, you just become so confused in any situation that you're in. Not being able to decide what will be the right thing to do. The world's morals now really contradicts God's word, its really hard for you to follow God's ways if you don't fear Him. And soon you'll backslide from Him. The doubts about His existence start to surface. I guess no matter what you've done, God will still love you. Depending on my own strength to live my days through the week. It feels so limited, so little strength i have. And the void in my heart just couldn't be filled up. So empty it is. I went around to find the pieces to occupy the space, like friends, hobbies and stuff like that. But then again, there's still spaces that just couldn't be filled no matter what I tried to put in. My search in that sense was still in vain. The longing in me wanted so much to be fulfilled. Now i finally found the one who filled my heart to the brim and even overflowing. One who i know is there for me whenever I'm in need, the one who will deliver me through every difficulties and obstacles i face. The one who picks me up when I'm already at the bottom of the pit. Who ever so loved me unconditionally.♥ 
Today was rather tiring. Had a VERY BAD cold with swollen eyes. I have no idea what happened. I guess it was the dog fur at my cousin's house. They were like running all over the place, as in litterally. So practically I'm at my cousin's house almost the whole day. It was such a bore. Didn't have much things to do, couldn't use the computer. The modem has problems. But I'm still clueless why jarvis had to lie that the computer spoilt. The computer have no problems AT ALL! He's such a weird guy.I don’t even know what’s wrong with him. In the evening it rained, as usual. I have no idea why does it have to rain now.. I want to jog!!! =( And phenie isn’t home yet. She’s so mean. Left me alone with her weird brother. By the time she came back home, it was already quite dark. That means we can’t jog at punggol end cause the ground is wet and its already so dark. Oh wells, guess running on the pavement will do.Anyways she is some sort like her brother too. WEIRD PEOPLE!! The moment she came back home, she told me she bought this dress for some event. SO RANDOM!!! The instant I start jogging(real slow), my blister started to hurt, A LOT. Even worse I had a running nose, and the wind was blowing very strong. At the end, I was panting like some person who is having a asthma attack, in addition, my legs couldn’t stop moving. But then again, I was glad I went down to jog. At least I could lose some fats. =d
Andrew was UBER funny today. He asked me whether my house was raining. I was like, i'm indoors, how to "RAIN"?!?!?! I guess his expression was like this>>> (-.-)"
I guess i need to turn in earlier than usual. I still have my kayaking practice tomorrow. ARGH!! I'm so going to faint from exhaustion. By the way, Alexa I'm so sorry. Couldn't catch the movie with you tomorrow. =( I will go with you another day,okay? Anyways you still have the guys, so ya. =d
My God is enough♥